It’s time again. What is time anyway. Manmade concept, illusion. Listening to Imagine Dragon’s – It’s Time right now, how fitting. I’ve been having a break from regular meditation and writing but I feel like now I need to pick them up again. Meditation was what started it all for me. Before I started to meditate about 9 months ago, I was doubting myself, I was not eating well, I wasn’t exercising enough, I was more shy, I had never asked a girl out, I wasn’t living. I probably wouldn’t be in exchange right now if I didn’t start to meditate last summer. It truely changed my life. And now I’ll stop coming up with excuses for not doing it regularly. If I don’t set myself a challenge to do it, I just find myself forgetting to do it or just saying that I’ll do it tomorrow. Tomorrow doesn’t exist, there’s just the present moment. If you want to get something done, do it now. Stop waiting, Buddha said you only think you have time. Listening to a playlist named Motivation that I made for myself and every song in it is uplifting and motivating. Clock is almost 4pm and I’m yet to get out of my bed today but I don’t even care. It’s fine. Yesterday I met one of the greatest guys I’ve met in my life. Every word he said was the pure truth. Me and him were thinking exactly the same way about things. We talked about things that are not discussed regularly because they are so controversial. Things like the moon landing, 9/11, the state of world economy and how evil it is, legalizing weed, problems of alcohol, harder drugs, about auras, love, hate, fake people, the fact that there shouldn’t be borders in the world. Also about meditation, tattoos, elements (he taught me thumb stands for fire, index finger for wind, middle finger for holy spirit, ring finger for earth and pinkie for water and it all makes so much sense). I had a great night talking and spending time with him. He was swearing to me that he knew me from before, that he knew a guy just like me. I felt the same, one of my childhood friends was and is still just like him. Some people you just feel that you have met before with even though you just met them.
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Too many challenges
Lately I’ve been challenging myself alot. A bit too much. Today ends my 1h meditation challenge. I have also couple other challenges going on for me. Sober january. I must write 1000 words everyday. 5 times to the gym every week. Also I want to practice singing, yoga, playing guitar, play poker at some points and I’m playing floorball 4 times a week and volleyball 2 times a week. And I want to cycle everywhere and not use my car. And not eat any sweets of any sorts. What am I even doing. Why I’m making my life so hard for myself. I need to not restrict myself from everything and loosen up a little bit. I’ve stressed alot lately. I feel like I have so much to do but I can’t get anything done. From this point on I’ll meditate when I feel like it. I might start a new challenge when the time is right but I want to try to not make it too strict for myself with the rules of how I should live my life. I won’t go to gym if I don’t feel like it. Who says I must go there 5 times a week. I already do so much exercising already and too much exercising is a problem too. I’ve had sleeping issues, memory problems and not the best appetite and also some personal problems. I’ve lately regularly woken up very early very alert and it’s hard to catch sleep again and then when I wake up again after catching sleep after a while, I feel very sleepy and can’t get much done in the mornings. Some days are different. Usually when I see people it’s fun but I’ve not been myself lately and sometimes I can’t think of anything to say when I feel like I would in the past in same kind of situations. Also I’m leaving for exchange in about 3 weeks and there’s alot of stuff that I’ve had to organize concerning it and still some left to do. Also I don’t know if I’ll go to army right after I come from exchange. On the other hand I’m up for it but on the other hand I’ve concidered skipping it to the future. But I think I’ll just go through with it. It’s just 2 months of duty that I have left, unless they figure out some way to make it longer for me.
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